Have you ever felt like you are not good enough?

Almost 8 years ago our newborn came into the world. I remember one night after putting him in his crib, I went downstairs to sit with my husband. We were chatting and my husband very casually told me “Eli, you seem to know a lot about babies. It is natural for you and you should start your own blog about being a mother!”.

I honestly thought he was going to say anything except what he said. I consider my husband really smart and for him to even have this idea feels so good in my body. He made me feel like I had something valuable to say. 

I remember that day very vividly. The idea of having my own blog sounded fascinating, and I love the fact that it came from my own husband. I started to fantasize about the subjects of some of the blog posts.

I even started to write some blog posts but I never posted them. Never dared to post. I was so afraid, what would everybody think? Who am I to write about anything? 

I grew up in a very conservative place, and you don’t share with the world what you are thinking or doing, heck, you don’t even appear on social media.

I do believe that the world has evolved, our communications method, the way we do business as well and so the community that I grew up in has evolved in that sense too, however, the beliefs were already ingrained in me and you know when you believe something, it is hard to change that belief.

I realized that every time I was going to post my blog I had an excuse not to, and I truly believed it. For more than eight years. I kept thinking I am not interesting enough, who was going to read it? What if people make fun of me? What would my family and friends think of me? 

However, the idea of having my own blog hasn’t left my mind, every once in a while I start daydreaming about my blog. 

It was a couple of months ago when for one reason or another I started to work on myself. I started going to therapy and reading books, listening to podcasts, and meditating, among many other things and I started to learn to love myself, for who I am, to validate myself, and not have a need for external validation. I am still working on all of the above but I am in a much better place with myself than I was a couple of years ago.

One day while I was showering I started to think again about all these years and why I haven’t started my blog. I had my domain name, I had the name and logo, I even had some blog posts written, and suddenly my mind went that route. I started to think that for 8 years that idea hasn’t left my mind for a reason. I don’t want to get old and still think about it. I don’t want to think about what could possibly be and never did. And most importantly I don’t want to let fear stop me. 

It was already August, my birthday was soon approaching, and I am usually big on celebrations. This year for different reasons it will be a low-key birthday day. I thought to myself  What better day to launch my first blog post than MY Birthday?  It is like a new beginning. It would be a gift from me to myself, truly honoring my wishes without thinking of anybody else.

This blog could be liked or disliked. I know it is a possibility, and I am at peace with it either way. Obviously, I do want the blog to be a source of inspiration both ways, I would like you that are reading this to speak your mind as well so we can all benefit from the information exchange. 

I do believe in collective thinking, collective sharing about ideas, places, restaurants, etc.

So here we are, Welcome Officially To My Blog. I will say this blog would be like a peek at what’s going on inside my brain. Let me tell you something in advance, my brain is all over the world ( And I love it!!!) 

Different topics, at different times, I love to call myself imperfect, so I cannot give you a date yet when the post will be best posted. I will give myself grace and post when I have time between motherhood and entrepreneurship. 

Thanks to social media I have learned a bunch of things, like amazing places, activities, people, classes, courses, etc. So I see this as a two-way street. I would like to share what I know, learn and continue to learn and I would like your comments, ideas, and input so we can all benefit from it. 

I hope as I get into a more concise schedule so we can have more predictability. But hang in there till we get there. That’s another thing that I am working on, better done than perfect, so this is hard for me too. Perfection has paralyzed me in more ways than I can feel proud of. 

Anyhow, Thank you for being Here. I truly appreciate it! And I hope you can join me on this new journey. 

This is my first step in this journey so Happy Birthday to Me!